The Saturday Night Kidnapping.

I think it was just what i needed.
I felt alive and like myself for the first time in so long, and i really honestly, had fun.
Christine and Jacob and Rachel kidnapped me today around 4. they had stopped to say hi on their way to the creek, and on their way back i had called and they were determined to get me in that mint greenish car. i didnt want to go at first, i didnt really ever talk to jake or rachel, and i really wanted to monopolize christine, i was feeling depressed.I remember looking at my bed in and the lighting of my room and .. i just couldnt stay at home. the ride to christines was perfect, one of those memories you just cant let yourself forget. jacob showed up at my door wearing a towel lol. looked like a skirt.
swing swing was playing, i remember really green grass. we goofed around with year books, and hahaha i had alot in common with jacob,we both dislike the same guy, like the same music and an incident regarding my psychic powers and his love for pineapple occured. i like that dude, he seems like a good friend. then we watched anchorman and ordered pizzas, rachel and me laughed at the same parts. christine knew all the lines lol. it was great. we eventually were distracted, went out side and just sorta, stood around lol. but it was a good kind. where the cement feels nice on your feet and the sky is the perfect combination of clouds and sun and blue. and it was just good. it was all so good. we played uno next and jake talked like a lil girl with lolli pops. then we played b.s. and then i dont know, we just laughed so much and were so goofy, it was so good. Me and Christine tied Rachel and Jacob at square. none of them had ever played it before. there were booths and gourmet lolli pops haha.i loved every bit of it. it was so much fun. and we didnt spend a dime! lol. it was great.then on the way home, God, was the sky beautiful tonight, the kind where youre just like..' are the stars really that bright?' and the moon was full and Boston was playing and Rachel was leaning her arm against Jakes seat, and it was good. Theres something about churches at night, that just conveys this completely different atmosphere. its not a creepy kind, but they remind me of chandeliers and gas stations at night. i dont know. i loved it though.they almost have the same feel as when you play hide and seek under a street lamp. today was so great! I loved it. and i missed Christine SO MUCH. I loved being able to hang out with her. her worlds still the same, but its changed so much too. i just love her, i loved tonight. it was great.
I remember thinking, looking out the back window, that if i ever broke myself, these were the kind of relationships and saturday nights that could make me strong. i loved it. I think ive been missing out on a world of saturday nights. they should all be this good. there were people outside shooting hoops, street lights, open garages,good music, and comforting friends. i loved it.
I was looking up and i was so baffled by how i was feeling and i realized i was happy. i was simply really very happy for the first time, so very happy, in a long time.
I hope me and Rachel can get closer. I hope we can all hang out , including David. I just want this type of atmosphere, to continue, and not be affected. I want that for myself. we were all so compatible, on the same level. i dont know, i dont want to get carried away, but i enjoyed it. my favorite part was the sugar rush from the jollyrancher lollipop and sitting on my toes on the red bench and being all yay!!
i could enjoy being myself again. it was honestly good.i wish it could happen constantly, like those friends who are always together. that would be good too. i just loved it. it was my type of mental holiday.