I Feel Like Crying

I don't know why.
I just read all my blogs.
Theres something depressing about knowing you only get stupider as you get older.
I can remark on my running progress.
I said often " I need to work on being secure."
I made it.
Partially.
I feel confident on the street, in stores. I feel tall.
I've never felt tall before.
It's remarkable.

I said I wanted to get in the habit of doing homework etc, Im there.
I do my homework. (except, right now.)

Everyman is his own island.
They can't lend you pencils in class.
"With-a- what did you do, and what did you say?
Skillet on the stove, such a temptation,
Maybe I'll be the lucky one that doesn't get
burned."

I made a list of friends and how much I missed them..It's strange how things change.
I still love JoJo. Today's his birthday. He use to say he would die when he was 18..
I don't know what I would do without him. He's made it so far today.
I still crave Montana.
Im not sure why. It's just so beautiful.
I want to go into the medical field, still. I just worry about the financial aspect of going to a university for 8 years.

The sweat from practice today burned my eyes so intensly, they're still red.
We got our jerseys for the meet saturday; I got #32.
Im really happy about this. That was my basketball and volley ball number in W.A.
I miss Washington terribly. I can't stay in Florida.
Its humid..and it's Florida.
Honestly, that is why I want to leave.
Yesterday David mentioned how stupid people at FSU were, and how he expected that to change since they weren't in h.s anymore.
I said " Well, it is a state school." and he said.
"No, its in Florida.Everyone comes here to party."
And that, is the truth. I never thought about it before.

Trajedy of the Commons, quickly, is the problem of individual interests vs. he long-term well being of the society.



This is inspiring.